My Soldier and I ♥

    My husband, my hero, my life, my love..My SOLDIER. He is currently deployed. There are many lonely nights, boring days, and you just know that half your heart isn't there. As I lay here tonight I find myself comforted. Unfortunately its not by chatting with I'm online, its not by seeing his amazing handsome face on Skye, nor is it by hearing his heart melting voice on the phone. What is comforting me at this exact moment is the sound of the down pouring rain outside. Hearing it hit the house the same way it must hit his tent. Smelling it the same way he must be. Knowing that even though there are thousands of miles between us, we can still share the little things in life together. Feeling the sun kiss our skin (well... more like bite and chew up his lol) Looking up at the moon knowing in our hearts the other does the same thing when it is out for them. Breathing the same air, I close my eyes and take a deep breath in, vaguely being able to trick myself into smelling him by me just one more time. I open my eyes and realize that he is yet again not there, but knowing one day soon he will be. Laying down at night, just as I drift off telling him goodnight and I love him in my head as I know he does the same when it is bed time for him. Being able to dream about him, touch him, hold him, and smell him. even if it is just in my dreams, he will once again make my dreams a reality sooner then I can even believe. I know he dreams about me as I dream about him. I know he thinks of me before he goes to bed and thinks of me before he opens his eyes in the morning just as I do. This deployment puts thousands of miles between us but can never bring me down and make me feel alone. Just because he isn't here in person doesn't mean he isn't here in my heart, and in my mind ever second of ever day. So laying here tonight.. yet again alone physically, I know as long ash is in my life, I will never be alone emotionally, or mentally. My soldier and I share many things that are impossable to get between. I love you baby and am so proud of you for all you do for our family and for our country. Stay safe and come home soon baby cakes!!! :]

Being a Mother

    It doesn't matter your age or if you are a single parent or have your partner to go down this road with you. Being a mother stays the same regardless. Being a mother means being selfless, caring, loving, understanding, accepting, calm, devoted, and being able to put your foot down and create sturcture in your childs life. There are book you can read, classes you can take, and advice you can get from others. None of it compaires to what we somehow acquire the second we find out we are pregnant, the first time we see our child on that little ultrasound screen or the first time we hear the heart beat. Nobody knows how or why we change so fast, but it is a knowladge that we are blessed to recieve. Some choose to ignore this knowladge and just act like motherhood is something you dont have to work at. Like they can just sit on their a#& and expect their kids to be okay. Then there are others who choose to be a parent when it benifits them. When people around watching, or asking questions about their kids like how is school going or what have they been up to. When you ask these people questions about their kids, please believe you will not recieve the truth. They will say what they have to in order to come off as a parent who is involved. I feel so bad for those kids with parents like that.
   Personaly my daughter is the center of my life. She isnt in school yet, cant talk yet, infact.. cant do a whole lot yet. I still find myself telling EVERYONE about the little things. She holds her spoon and likes to feed herself, she reaches for her toys and bottles.She giggles. Little things like that are what make my day. Every parent has different views on how their children should live and be raised and nobody is in any position to judge. If kids are safe, healthy, and happy then that is all that matters. I could never see my life without my daughter. Im a young parent but I wouldnt have waited on more day to have her! The thing that I am most blessed to be able to do is... Being a Mother♥ For any parent who doesnt realize how truly blessed they are, please take a step back and just look at your kids.. if their beautiful face doesnt do it.. I dont know what will.

Fam[ily]

Family: A person or people related to one and so to be treated with a special loyalty or intimacy


    Family, weather you are connected by blood, adoption, marriage, or they are close enough friends that you consider them family.. it doesn't matter. Family is family and they will always be apart of your life. Sometimes you may not want them to be but they will. Your family is always there if you need them. Even if you may not get along and you truly think they wouldn't be there to catch you if you fall... I'm sure they would. There are always going to be hard times in life and yes that includes pointless fights with them, feuds that never seem to end, drama that isn't needed, and a unwanted fakeness. Even with all that stuff, it is still family. No family is perfect but its all we got. We don't get to choose who they are or how they act so the only thing you can do is just learn to deal with it. No matter what happens you will always love them and they will in return always love you. People fight with their family and lie to them more then they do with friends, co-workers, or anybody they encounter. I have come to realize the reason why is because in the end we all know that no matter what... our family will still be there for us, still love us. To end this short post, I just have to say... cherish the ones you have in your life, because they wont be there foever. Friends will come and go but your Fam[ily] will always be there. Make the best of it and learn to accept everyone is different.

Day by Day

    Everyone has their problems and obstacles to overcome yes. Some choose to live life as glass half full and face them head on. Others choose to complain about their lives and the problems that are most current. I have come to realize that complaining about the inevitable wont change any thing. In fact it does nothing more then cause more stress then needed in this already hectic thing we call life. Some people complain just because they don't know how else to deal with life. Others do it to get attention and sympathy. Talking to a friend or family member about a problem that you need help getting through is different from just listing off everything that is wrong with your life and how hard it is to be you.
    I am not saying that my life is perfect by any means. The things in my life that I am beyond grateful for out weigh the things that go wrong sometimes. Life is something that will happen weather we are ready for it or not. Stand tall, embrace it, and know that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. The only thing that helps me cope with my problems is knowing that tomorrow is a new day. The only thing we can all do is just live life, Day by Day and know that even the worse of times do pass over and we are left only being strong from what we have accomplished and gone through.